Good Morning! Today is beautiful and I'm doing alright. I hope you are, too!
I told you yesterday that we were going to have a 2nd grade graduation party for my son. And we did! It was fun but I did find myself struggling to stay away from things I knew I couldn't have. I think it is all in my mind. We decided to go see Kung Fu Panda 2. What a joy! It was such a good movie. Although, the biggest joy by far was my son, who laughed through the whole thing while chomping, licking, and sucking on one of those huge, round, spiral, multicolored lollipops. He was a sticky mess! Got to love him! I really wanted to take a picture but it was too dark.
Before we went to the movies, of course, we had to eat. It was supper time! I was trying to find something that I could have that wouldn't jeopardize my diet. My husband suggested Panda Express. All I could think was orange chicken, fried rice, and an egg roll. My mind was in the food gutter! Ha! I was also thinking but didn't say it, are you out of your mind? So I looked up their menu and the nutritional values online. Well, I was well surprised that they actually had some healthy meals and they made some of them with their mindset on dieters. So this was good! I decided on the Wok Smart mushroom chicken and mixed steamed veggies. I have to say that the mushroom chicken was delish!!!! But there wasn't much of it. That's okay because I'm sure that if it had been anymore, it would have been too much. The veggies....oh the veggies! There were so many. There were mushrooms, zucchini, broccoli, cabbage, carrots, and green beans. I give a thumbs up to the mushrooms, zucchini, and the broccoli but the rest....well, they were not steamed enough. I couldn't hardly chew them. They were super hard! It was very disappointing. But believe me, I had plenty to eat. And I'm sure that the salt intake on the chicken alone was way too much, so I sure didn't need anymore.
CANDY!!!!! Why is candy everywhere? Why? Okay, I know why because people buy lots of it and they love it. Companies make lots of money and everyone's happy! Right? No! Not me...not anymore! I hated the idea that my hubby and son got to go into CVS and pick whatever candy they wanted. Not because I didn't want them to enjoy themselves but because I knew it would kill me not to get to have the same pleasure. So, I went to the sugar free candy! I thought, "Here's my treasure of pleasure!" Wrong again! Wow, those things have lots of calories if you aren't careful. I did manage to find some hard candy that you could have 5 pieces for 40 calories. I only had 3 and they were just okay. I think what I really wanted was to chew....chew....really chew and savor something. Once again, am I still mourning junk and unneeded food? I think so. I'm kinda getting the idea that this is an ongoing process that will not happen over night. I suppose as long as I stay focused at the task at hand and mindful of my emotions when it comes to food, I'll be okay! Did I ever say this is hard?
Your posts sound so much like what I am going through, except for me it is the first few weeks post-op. Food is everywhere...EVERYWHERE! Being on liquids or just a few choices of soft foods is really hard, especially when there are parties, BBQ's, and all kinds of special events. I am sorry you are having to go through this, as it is sooo hard, but it is nice to know that we are not alone.
ReplyDeleteYou will get through this! I am excited for you to begin this journey and look forward to reading all about it :) It is worth it, even as I salivate over the junk food all around me. I am looking forward to next week, when I can have solids again.
Hi Sandy! I know, isn't this hard? Thank you so much for reading my blog, commenting, and encouraging me. I'm so proud of you! You've definitely come along way. You're almost to real food again. How awesome that is! I can hardly believe that I have lasted 10 days and still have 2 weeks until surgery and then post op. Ugh! We can do this!!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, you are right, there is food everywhere! I am avoiding going to Costco because they handout samples that are just too hard to pass up. I know if I'm eventually faced with it, I get through it but it won't be easy.