Pre-Op, Day 10

Today is a little harder because I have to deal with only getting 2 shakes and a small meal. Am I going through a little depression? I think so. This is hard!

I'll tell you some of the things that I'm really struggling with. Today, after my son's swimming lessons, there was a pool party at one of our friend's house. They were going to have pizza, cake, and sodas. Honestly, that didn't bother me. But I knew that the heat (Texas heat) would be very bothersome on an empty stomach. So, I didn't even tell him about it. I feel so horrible that I can't even tolerate the heat for him. Usually, I would go, sit, talk, and watch. The heat wouldn't be fun but I would bare it for him. In the past, I could go to Sonic and get a big, juicy hamburger, and a Route 44 Dr. Pepper. Or just the Dr. Pepper. Yum! So back then I found away to get through it. Ha! But just sitting there watching everyone pigging out and smelling the smells while I couldn't even have a protein shake....I think it would put me in tears. Okay, so it bothers me a little! This is all new and I suppose I'm still in mourning. And plus, how do I explain to everyone why I'm not eating anything when I'm trying to stay hush, hush about this.

Another thing that is bothering me is that my son ask both my husband and I today why we haven't had his 2nd grade graduation party. The party usually consist of the 3 of us eating out or a movie...something like that. Anyways, my hubby told me to think about what we could do. I really, really want to go to Texas Roadhouse...but I can't have red meat while on my pre-op diet...so no steak! I'm thinking, though, that we could still go. I could eat 3-4 oz. of grilled chicken, some salad with little to no dressing, and green beans. That's doable! Well, I have to update you on what we end up doing.

See what I mean, everything revolves around food. Everything! I will definitely be a person that will have to find something to do to keep busy. Maybe going back to crafting or puzzling is an idea.

Change....change is coming!